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blog - an escape for everyone who has nothing to do. who needs a life, basically. a.k.a ME.

I've been thinking about some stuff lately.. maybe it's just because I'm bored, I got nothing to do (except studying, eating, and regretting stupid stuff!) I don't know, I shouldn't be like this. I should have thanked God for the blessings and all, but I just can't help it.

So like.. I really want to play soccer again, but it seems like I barely have time for it now. Probably it's because I'm staying with someone else, and I feel bad if I hang out with my friends.

I need a car. desperately. but I can't drive, and I can't ask for one. It's insane, I'm not even 17, and I haven't been here for half a year! DUDE. but it's just HARD. I can't always depend on my cousins..!

I hate this f***in guy. He is an a**. I don't know why, we used to hang out a lot. and boom. We're done. I don't know. weirdo. He just annoys me. and probably I annoy him as well. both sides, I guess.

So, I took the bus this morning to go to campus, and I went to 99 cents store to buy a snack. I was craving for one! Yeah, so I took this chez mix, cheddar, is it what it's called? Yeah. you know what I mean, it's just a snack anyways, whatever. I went to the cashier to pay right, and there was a line. I queued up like quietly, but then there was this f***in old me who just cut the f***in line!!!! I was soooooo pissed off, you can't imagine. It was probably just because of my bad mood. so anyway.. this blog is so random you know right? Scroll up and read, my writing never makes any sense! HAHA.

Here comes the doubts.

I would be really nice IF..

- I have a boyfriend--a husband-to-be--here in LA, preferably in my campus, or near, who can always meet me up, pick me up, drop me home, and all. HAHA, it seems like i need a private driver not a boyfriend. LOL. and he would always be on my side. He is well-known, the best one, all girls would die to be with him, and all the guys desperately want to be like him, but he's mine, so.. uh-oh, no chance. HAHAHA wouldn't it be nice? *dreaming*

- I have good friends who would always side with me.

- I have all the money in the world. which brings me all the fashion stuff, practically everything!

- I have my family by my side.

- I am taller and thinner!

- I have a happy life.. I'm a happy person!